I give up
Every day is a constant fight.
I try to make you see how your actions and
your words effect all of my being.
You degrade and belittle me,
then you tell me its my fault you do these things.
I believe that it builds your ego and makes you proud
to make me feel useless, worthless.
You know that you are wrong, yet you don’t care.
You know that I am right, and that makes you angrier.
I can’t even look at my reflection in the mirror.
You have killed my self-image.
You have killed my self-worth.
You cheat, You lie, and you get mad and blame me when I call you out on it.
You demand respect and trust.
What have you done to deserve it?
When I build up the courage to stand up to you,
You quickly knock me back down.
As much as I loathe you, I love you.
As much as I want to leave you, I’m trapped.
There is only one way out.
Death, please take away this pain.
Note: October is domestic violence awareness month, So I wanted to write something to bring your attention to it.
MY THOUGHTS ON THE SUBJECT ARE AS FOLLOWS 
Brutal but beautifull written. Revealing this can shine light on someone’s darkness.
Thanks my love
Raw, poignant emotions here. Beautiful.
Thanks Tara!
At first I thought this was about infidelity, and now I realize how similar the two are to each other.
As painful as this was to read, I’m glad you wrote it. Beautifully done.
Infidelity and abuse often go side by side. Thank you so much for your kind words.
Very grim, but a powerful message.
Thank you. This message is close to my heart.
I totally got the abusive vibe. You nailed the emotions of being trapped!
Thanks Gina. I was hoping I was able to get that across.
Brutal is the word, for sure. This is at the heart of it, I think: “As much as I loathe you, I love you.” Great writing, and great intentions, to bring awareness to this issue.
Thanks Christine. I think that was the most honest line for me.
This was sharp and strong … however, death can never be the answer …. violence has to be stopped !!!
I agree that death should never be the answer. When your in this situation though, sometimes it’s hard to see that. That’s why it’s important to me to get awareness out for these victims. Thanks for reading!
Many people don’t understand the trapped part. Great job with this prompt.
Ive come to learn that most people dont get the trapped part unless you have lived it.
Thanks for reading.
Painful and beautiful. Thank you for sharing.
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Thank you for reading!
rich with emotion and really hits you, makes you think.
Thanks Carrie.
I’ve been in this place. Well done, Bo. Perfectly written.
Thanks Mel. It is a hard place to be and a hard place to get out of. Im glad you stopped by.
OMG, this is a horrible existence. I’ve never even come close to experiencing anything like this, but I would hope she could get help instead of choosing to die. But I understand that she feels trapped. This is very well done!
Thanks you! Sometimes in this situation trying to get help will make things worse (at least thats how she feels)
It’s a very powerful piece.
Thanks Jen!
This is so stark and powerful. Well done, indeed!
Thank you for reading.
I know that place, where it feels like the only way out. I hope she found another way. Thanks for linking up.
Thank you!