Overwhelming emotions cloud my thoughts.
spiraling deeper, deeper into the pit of my stomach.
Guilt is surrounding me lunging out through my words.
The more I speak, the more guilt comes to me.
It is a never-ending circle of hurt.
People pretend to care enough to ask me “whats wrong?”.
I shrug and say “nothing” with a forced smile.
The lie turns to more guilt.
Fighting the urge to drown myself in my bed beneath the blankets
gets harder and harder.
What can I do to move past this?
What can I do to heal?
Nothing. It’s not really worth it.
Note: This is not something I am going through at the moment. I have dealt with a form of depression for as long as I remember. I wanted to get these thoughts out on paper.